Find the similarity.

I found it kinda funny.
Between these two pics there is one really obvious similarity...


*ignore the problem of low quality of this pic*


*ignore the beh song-ness of this person*

Do you notice one thing?

The only 2 photos that I'm having (2 orang mia)
this LIOW JI HERNG pun appeared. Ish. merosakkan photo aku la.
xD jkjk.

aku sendiri pun beh tahan myself.

don't ask me why.

Still dragging...

I know I've been dragging to write on the post of the

FGA CYC NEW GENERATION CHALLENGE CAMP 2008

know why?

I'm still struggling hard to vomit out my assignments.

and seriously i do not have the time to write SUPER LONG post as the stories for this camp could not be expressed in short words.

So...

This is my "outline" for the post about camp: *tada*

i know. you couldn't even read a SINGLE word from that.
and it's senget senget too.
but if you see nearer, i guess you'll say: wah neat wor!
xD. syok sendiri.

In short, please don't put high expectations on me.
as in, don't really wait for that post to come lar.
Who knows maybe i siao siao don't wanna write on that...
But do wait for my post of CREDITS.
lots of people to thank to. =)
if i didn't write also must kick me to write.

<3
Bee

被取代 不是令人开心的事情...

我依然会忍不住嘲笑着自己的笨

总是轻易的相信
轻易的坠入
但就是没办法轻易的忘掉

此笨处于mild的状态
我才不忍心说自己是chronic stage的笨..
=,=

CYC New Generation Challenge Camp!

I see most of my lovely blogger friends gave this camp a post.
and so i followed. =,=

Well frankly I'm still blank about what to write for this camp.
No no. Rephrase. I still have no mood to write about this camp.
additionaly, no photos to be posted because i haven't receive any!

Okay la.
I didn't expect anyone to send to me but i'll try to grab from blogs to blogs.
Saw one photo in Rico's blog.
SUPER UNFORTUNATELY and he mm sik do,
he posted the one with my face being blocked by David.
So, I also have no face to post it here la... xD

If i'm not mistaken,
my chubby face will be found in:
- my phone.
- jen's phone.
- pooi kee's phone.
- zw's phone.
- rico's phone.
- mei bao's phone.
- piak geen's phone.
who else...

no more gua.
wah. i didn't really camwhore wei.

REGRETS...

2nd tag of the day, by Kelly.

1. Who are you?
- Bee. blogger of this blog.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?*
- depends wor. Boyfriend 'evolves' from friend also ma...

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
- Never thought of that before. That is kind of blockheadish.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- Sometimes yes sometimes not at all. Boost up and no more again...

5. How many babies you want?
- Two.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- This is a science thingy wor. Have to believe de meh...

7. What is your goal for this year?
- Make my future clear and super lot more.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- God's love is eternity. and yes i believe in Him.

9. What's a perfect boyfriend like to you? (List 10)
- first of all, loves God.
- loves me of course
- eh no one is perfect de wor...
- loves to laugh
- optimistic
- supportive
- instrument ppl
- sporty ppl
- ... all those fairy tales ppl mia characteristics la.

10. What feeling do you love most?
- The feeling of love? xD

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
- Eh. Sounds similar to Q9 leh. skip.

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?
- No. anti hate-hate la.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Not really EVERY SINGLE relationship la. But to most of them, YES.

14. What does flying means to you?
- First thing that pops into my mind is, I am a bee which couldn't fly. =,=

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
- this post says it all.

16. Who's hotter? Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?
- I'm hotter. The weather kills.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
- Best defender in futsal. xD
- smart
- same height with me already if i'm not mistaken
- love to camwhore
- one more... er.. geng ppl.

18. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
- find people to crap and laugh.

19. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
- .... No idea ler.

20. What are your fear(s)?
SNAKES! yor and a lot more lazy to list down la. I wanna eat cake d. xD

Instructions: Tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.
People i tagged :
1. You
2. yOU
3. YoU
4. yoU
5. YOu
6. yOu
7. yoU
8. YOU

Tagged. Yes. by Keh Bin.

Okay la. Thanks Bin the Keh. This looks kinda fun.

The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5. Tag at least 5 people.

1. How are you feeling today?
- Consuming Fire. Amen!!

2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
- 比你贱. *no comment wei*

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
- 病态. *OMG* 爱我的病态 -.-

4. Will you get far in life?
-安静了. yes, i'm currently speechless when it comes to my future life.

5. What do you think about very often?
- Mighty to Save. My God is mighty to save and PRAISE THE LORD!

6. What is 2 + 2?
- 我爱的人. Ask the person that I love. xD

7. What's your best friend's theme song?
- Everyday. Venn gua...

8. What is the story of your life?
- 那首歌. That song can say it all. But i don't know which song. -.-

9. What is/was your high school like?
- Holy is the Lord. I prefer talking about my Lord than my high school. LOL.

10. What is your motto?
- Jesus, Lover of my Soul. Living for Him!

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
- The Heart of Worship. They love God just like I do. =)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
- 酸甜. Exactly.

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- 最伟大的事. Amen again!

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
- 神秘嘉宾. 'Is he the one', that's the thought.

15. Describe your grandparents.
- My friend. Can laugh with talk with play with...

16. How's your life going?
- 我们的爱. *speechless*

17. What is your biggest fear?
- 天亮了. Have to wake up already... AWW...

18. What will be played at your funeral?
- You raise me up. LOL. How scary will that be if I suddenly pops up again.

(Question 19 is missing for unknown reason... ask Keh Bin. xD)

20. Will you have a happy life?
- There is none like you. *speechless again*

21. What do your friends really think of you?
- 爱不疚. No regrets loving me? *shy* LOLx.

22. Do people secretly lust after you?
- Gomenasai. Aku tak tau.

23. How can you make yourself happy?
- 爱我的两个人. Love!!

24. Will you ever have children?
- 背影. ah?

25. What song would you strip to?
- 自由不变. sometimes 自由 sometimes 不变. x)

26. What does your mom think of you?
- 女孩当自强. Wow, ngam wei...

27. What do you think of your parents?
- You are the music in me. Ya, I always face the music. The scoldings. xD jkjk

28. What is your deep, dark secret?
- 爱来过. come and go come and go..

29. What is your enemy's theme song?
- Hosanna. enemy-enemy is not my cup of tea. Better sing Hosanna.

30. What will you dance to at your wedding?
- My Father. Yes. =)

ah... no more? tak cukup leh... xD

Tag everyone.
and I know no one will do. Haha. =,=

吼～

猪头 笨蛋 死人头 双面人 假假人 !!!



爽

OMG

is the best word to describe my feeling now.

I'm in a big OH-NO situation.

Sigh.

熟悉的脸孔
不熟悉的你

稀释的心意
跳不出的迷

之前的聊开
蕴酿的小爱

一切积聚成雾
扰乱了你 迷茫了我

......了

心 远了
不属于自己了

温柔已不在了
迫不及待绽放的花蕾 谢了

浓郁的想念没了
失望透了

看开了
不再执着于拥有了

无奈地放了
强迫自己忘了

记下回忆了
摆设在心房了

来, 谢幕了
未开始的故事 结束了

Help. HELP!

Come. Please lend a shoulder and a hand to me.

Seriously. I'm so gonna cry.

Okay. The story starts like this:
Bei and I went for Design class and act 38-ly as usual.
and *thunders* that EAGLE (lecturer) came in,
at the same time Bei found that the Project 5 for Design is:
*TADA* Drawing SNAKES using Adobe Pen Tool!!!!

you know what...
The main point is not on the 'tada' or 'drawing' or adobe pen tool,
BUT. THE. MAIN. POINT. IS. ON. THE.

SNAKES! aduhai...

Omg u won't know how terrible my mood was. and my expressions too.
Tears almost *pili pala* roll down.

I got snakephobia la....
the EAGLE looked at me one kind when i was YELLING IN PAIN.
Haih. Now thought of it also really feel like burning the lecturer's house d. *show fist*
Why must choose SNAKES instead of BEE or BUNNY or WALL E?

Yor. How la. 10% leh.
I've decided to beg anyone to help.
I'll never ever do that on my own. *shivers* geli la the snakes.
(The EAGLE still purposely show the snake picture through LCD tim)
Ish Ish Ish!!!

Thanks Bei for ur 'hard work',
trying to persuade me that the snakes are just belts and ropes.
UNFORTUNATELY this kind of hypnosis doesn't work for me at all...
yes. super unfortunate.

The lecturer is really not considering students' feeling.
Tsk tsk tsk.

Aiyo.
Ma fan la.

I HATE SNAKES!!!!!!

i know it's obvious that i've used a lot of CAPS LOCK this time.
couldn't control myself.

S.O.S.

I am craving for...

ice cream. movies. chocolate. ice blended beverages. karaoke time. pasar malam food. jokes. chit-chatting time. camwhore moment. sms kaki. money for camp fees. job. warm notes. sweet messages. eye contacts.

weird.
but i'm in need in those stuff.

Help. Help. Help.

哦主耶稣啊~~~~~

救我
我的Psychology lab report还死下死下

救我
我的Design project完全败在我的无创意之下

救我
我的钱包快速瘦下来.. 实在是太多camp要去了啦～！

刘Bee, 不要懒惰了！！！
敢敢地去service敢敢地去camp但别敢敢地懒惰...

信心 信心 信心

说+做 说+做 说+做

Seek His kingdom FIRST and everything will be added!

也救我
我的心...

惊讶。

毫无心理准备地又再次听到我以前的事情。
慧沁说我是很难邀请到camp啊, service等等的...

不否认, 我曾经带有抗拒之心
然后她也提到: 我一直用朋友来当藉口
比如说, "你叫李呸去我就去喽~"
(*不过Shin, 我真的不记得我有说ShuWen)
(*也完全忘了你邀过我去Crossover 2007)

吼~ 怎么我以前酱衰啊...

现在. Shin. 我深深体会到你的感受.

对自己的提醒:

100％ 信心!

Let me do some crapping before I continue my assignment again.
Yes. I admit that I don't know how to weigh the importance of the matters.

Having the urge to mention a bit about two songs that we sang today.
Bapa yang Kekal and Yesus.

Yesus Kristus. Bapa yang kekal, sahabatku yang berada di sisiku.

Sometimes we might ponder.
Who is the one that we can share our secrets to?
Who is the one that we can 100% rely on?
Who is the one that always waiting for you to talk to?
Yes. NO DOUBT-our beloved JESUS CHRIST!

Friends may be busy and no time for you.
Friends may feel that you're annoying.
Friends may think that 'Why put things that complicated?'
Friends may respond in a simple and ignorance way.
All these = bring disappointment.

but JESUS CHRIST.
He is 24/7 available for problem solving.
He gives the best advices.
He provides the best shoulder for us to lean on.
All these = unlimited JOY !

Okay. Time for assignment.
Jesus I love you!

Specially dedicated to 'FastKL' buses.

REALLY GERAM LO!

The 'FastKL' bus that goes from Sri Petaling LRT Station to don't know where. U71 is the number. Ish.
Kononnya RAPID.
I just couldn't understand what's the use of them stopping the bus at Bkt Jalil place and made ALL the passengers wait and waiT and waIT and wAIT and WAIT!!!

Ish Ish Ish.

The frust thing is-I couldn't find the number to complain the bus.
If not ar, for sure I'll tell the company about this problem. Hmph..

Oh no. Have to self-control. No angry angry.

and I miss my long hair too...

and i miss my buddies...

I miss them.

I miss my school uniforms a lot !!
Oiyo.
Feel like wearing them again. Haha.
Yea I know that sounds kinda weird.
But...
Aih...
Anyway, let me show some secondary school pics.
Aww. I miss my friends too~

Here comes : PINAFORE !




There goes : BAJU KURUNG !




and also : PJK OUTFIT !




not forgetting : 100 YEARS T-SHIRT !




and : LIBRARIAN UNIFORM !




lastly : PANDU PUTERI UNIFORM !




Go to school macam fashion show.
1 week don't know how many types of uniforms.
And I miss all of them. T.T

[16.10.2008] Jogoya Day!

Jogoya. First time in my life. With dad and 2 brothers and yuki (brother's yuki)

2pm till 4.15pm.

Kind of excited lar.

Not too crowded on that day. Boleh tahan.
Then...

Aiya in short,
I drank:-
* Coconut
* Shivas
* Lime thingy
* Milo
* What dried longan thingy
* Mushroom soup

I ate:-
Lots of stuff!
and I found that I love unagi!
(although it's the sea creatures that I'm really afraid of..)

And until then only I know Jogoya is really generous.
They provide free cockroach!

Anyone wants to go Jogoya?
I wanna go again. This time with friends. Female half price weh~
jom la jom la~
I wanna take more photos next time!!!

Cheese crab don't know what. Smiley face!

Greedy me. ToOk 2. Cute ma.

Yes. I'm the light bulb!

Wah after that meal I look like a pregnant woman.

All the fishes eels crab swimming in the stomach.

What an upset mia stomach...

-.-

要学人搞单恋、暗恋、明恋的话
就请自备降落伞
这些都是危险动作
万一受了点挫折
从高空坠落跌得遍体鳞伤就不那么好了…

*纯粹写写. =)

慢慢地了解为什么有一些人的伴侣变得很坏很坏
另一方还是愿意等待
等待着他的从新转变
等待着他的回心转意

这些愿意的等待
都是甜蜜回忆搞的鬼

当你深知他不属于你
依然会守候 还是放手？

看回之前的blog post
有着这一段：

找不到理由紧握
但也没办法放下
站在两者边缘就像走在钢索中间
进退两难

还真的非常进退两难...

*强调：纯粹灵光一闪的想法

[True Worshippers] Yesus

VERSE
Hidup yang kupilih
Mebuatku berarti
Kar’na Yesus Tuhan
Tempat kupercaya dan berharap
Kubuka mataku
Lihat sek’lilingku
Kuharus nyatakan
Kebenaran-Nya yang membebaskan

PRECHORUS
Kar’na kuasa-Mu
Kar’na kehebatan-Mu
Ku dapat lakukan
Perkara Besar
Yang Enkau janjikan

CHORUS
Yesus Kaulah sahabatku
Yesus Kau yang akan s’lalu berada di sisiku
Kau sumber kuatku
Yesus Kaulah sahabatku
Yesus Kau yang tak pernah jemu-jemu di sisiku
Kau sumber kuatku

END
Kau sahabatku
Berada di sisiku
Kau sahabatku selama-lamanya
Kau sahabatku berada di sisiku

50 facts about me.

Sorry KehBin, i find this tag more fun. So I've decided to choose this tag abandon your tag. Forgive me! xD.

50 facts about myself. Takes a lot of brain juices to think. But I'm excited! Excited on the tagging part. Haha~

Okay so now. 50 facts. No specific arrangement. First pops up first write.

1. I love Jesus.

2. I am meaty.

3. I love to sing-almost anywhere, anytime.

4. I enjoy blogging most of the time.

5. My room is messy.

6. Prefer to blog in Chinese than in English

7. I blog more when i'm in extreme happy or emo mood.

8. I love people calling me 'bee'.

9. Super indecisive in any circumstances.

10. I'm still very peh in driving. currently.

11. I'll show faces when I'm emo. Beh tahan.

12. Enjoy laughing very very much.

13. I think I am too punctual. Always have to be the one who waits.

14. Love sweet stuff. both foods and words.

15. and now I realized that I don't know much about myself. I'm stuck!

16. People say that I'm blur all the time.

17. I like the number '7' and '11'

18. Once dreamed to becoma a POP STAR! (stranger: siao wei)

19. I have 5 blogs. 3 Personal blogs 2 Gang blogs. Super madness.

20. Don't ask me things on 'IF IMAGINE' dotdotdot. I wouldn't know how to answer.

21. I don't have sms kaki already.

22. Milo and Gardenia bread is my best friends throughout my life. xD

23. Super anti snakes. Even on magazines and books also beh tahan.

24. Afraid of lala-s if I'm walking alone. Feel alienated.

25. I talk very loud but I don't understand why others still couldn't hear.

26. The doctor told my parents that I was actually a baby boy in the ultrasonic thingy.

27. Never played with barbie dolls =,=

28. Reject 'buy LV means love me' theory.

29. Used to wear a lot of jewelleries during childhood time. Now? Er....

30. Loves to sing k but always out of tone.

31. Enjoy reading my own blog posts and diaries again and again.

32. Most of the people say I am bully-able. But I'm NOT!!!

33. Dislike people saying foul words.

34. I will purposely say THANK YOU louder when the cashier didn't say that to me.

35. Always say sorry. although it's not my fault.

36. Not good in advising+comforting people. So, I'll just listen. =D

37. I have 1 pet brother jek- Jinjang Oh Kien Seng!

38. Failed once in the driving test-slope part *geram*

39. Used to confuse on the words 'kelapa' and 'kepala'.

40. I am happy at the moment because I'm almost done!

41. Prefer letters and cards full of words as presents. (than getting a photo frame)

42. Dislike people cheering and yelling during performaces but now I am the one who always do that. =P

43. I don't want to owe people stuff. So tell me if i'm still owing you something.

44. I don't even have a proper DRESS. (school uniform is not proper enough.XD)

45. I'll never ever like *a** and invisible guy !

46. I am slow. in the sense of realizing people's meaning+feeling.

47. Younger people tend to like me more than the elder ones.

48. Admirers+People that I admire= more than 10. Haha.

49. Calling bf 'laogong' or 'lou gong zai' is a no-no to me.

50. *Finally!* I am hungry now!

i know la. semua pun super lame. no choice. out of ideas.

now, tag 50 people! swt.. jkjk.

Those who came to my blog before, you know who you are. Do pls. =)

victims victims !! *evil grin* again, NOT FORCING~

应该吗?

BC说, 喜欢一个人就应该跟他说
等到他已经有了女朋友就太迟了啦
加上, 问了, 至少有个'知'字

那...

喜欢一个人应该勇敢表白吗?

我觉得是看情况而定的啦.

如果明知道对方对自己没意思
甚至是不喜欢嫌你烦那种
很明显就不会要说

如果明知道双方暧昧暧昧到上瘾
那就看时机表白算了
拖拖拖也没用

如果明知道对方只当自己是好朋友
我个人会觉得, 算了吧
影响友谊也不好啊...

又如果猜来猜去也猜不透对方的心意
这就麻烦了
这时候应该是拼命探听对方消息的时候
我是会看情况做事啦...

说来说去我只能得到一个结论
就是
现在没办法准确回答这些假设性的问题

突然间有一个想法飘过脑海
只是单纯飘过
那就是

有没有任何人用一种"我喜欢你"的眼神看着我

我知道发梦还很早, 但是就是想发一下梦.

有梦想才会成真! xD

呵呵~

Baptism Day!

哇~ 整个心情是兴奋兴奋! 可是今天洗礼没我份. 我很有信心(不是夸口还是什么的), 我不用等到21岁就可以洗礼! 一直在想像着下次我去浸礼的时候会是如何. 自high. xD. 我喜欢大日子的其中一个原因就是可以拼命拍照!
回想起一年前(好像是吧) 看到慧沁的blog有满满的照片, 都是跟教会朋友的, 我羡慕, 羡慕他们可以酱friend酱黏. 不过还是感谢主让我到CYC认识到一班很好很棒对神很火热的年轻人!

噢对了, 今天有一个超级无敌非常极度可爱的小弟弟亲我耶(对, 是我逼他的... 开玩笑啦！他很乐意亲啊~) 他亲到好可爱, 有'清脆' 声音tim... =D 整夜睡不着了...*.*


PooiKee and Bee - looks like couple leh~

05095 and Bee

I'm the flower!

+1's bear bear

Bee and Florence

整天都心情紧张...

一天的行程心情 . 纯属记录 .

一大早被哥哥电话吵醒, 没睡得安宁. 然后去妈妈店看头看尾. 神也真的很祝福我, 本来我的钱包只剩下几块钱, 但过后妈妈无端端给我钱耶～哟呼～在店里也是上网聊天. 显. 过后就去教会噜~

迟到for祷告会还要半路杀进去吵到大家我真的不是很好意思. 进到去胜和那家伙竟然就要走了, 留下我跟小朋友们, 怪怪的. 不过还ok.

我要早点到的原因之一是圣经班, 结果...

取消了！

那时才3点出一点点. oiyo一个人孤伶伶玩电梯真的不是很爽罢了. 接着我就独自坐在P2门前的梯级乘凉. 风冷冷的. 不过酱坐的样子有点凄凉. 突然之间 *紧张的音乐* 电话震动了. 以为是shin, 谁知道是'Daniel'这名字. 又以为他是要我找慧沁, 又一个谁知道他说伯寿gor要见一见我. 哦天啊这也太恐怖了吧！紧张之下都不懂哪一楼见他. 在电梯时不懂怎的就是紧张到半死. 原来是伯寿gor要我讲见证. 吼~ 好恐怖. 面对着伯寿gor我压力很大. 面对着平时只能远远看的人我都会很紧张. 我讲了一堆过后他又帮我整理一番. 然后加上100%信心. 我心里okay okay平复了. 感谢主让我在这方面有着操练. 练下练下就会fit fit噜！

见完伯寿gor之后又一个人'流离浪荡'. 在P2编辑一下我的见证内容, 祷告, 加point, 祷告. 因为我真的不想只是干干的讲见证而是祷告求神恩膏我嘴, 加强胆量. 然后又到L3又到P2又到L3又到P2. 没骗人, 的的确确就是酱往上又往下, 往下又往上. 最后等到4.40pm才等到Victor下来去载人. 我知道肯定会迟到for service. 一迟到我就会紧张(现在我才发觉我非常神经质到严重) 只好一直在车里祷告. Victor一直不明白我做么酱紧张, 那时我也没打算跟他讲我要讲见证, 免得又加大我的压力.

5.40pm才到CYC. 超级紧张. 但是又不紧张. 其实是不紧张啦... 心里真的很有平安的感觉. 信息到一半伯寿gor就叫我讲见证. 虽然掌声两三声而已, 但是真的就没什么紧张害怕. 也许是眼睛瞎瞎的缘故. 不过最大的原因是对神有信心! 整个见证我是有无言一下, 但是勉强过关lo. 坐回原位的时候突然我有很多想add-on. 但是不可能跑前去抢mic的嘛... 我也有在想, 伯寿gor会不会想bing我, 讲到酱kik sui. 但是神再次提醒我, 我的见证是要荣耀神的名, 而不是得到领袖的赞美还是什么的. 神的肯定比任何东西都重要. 所以没那么在意. 不过难免还是要有一些意见让我再加强嘛. 以后我肯定会再有见证的嘛... 大家说对不对?

Service过后就去维汉家支持一下. 无可否认整个过程我都满想闭上眼睛就来个呼噜呼噜. 但是还是要尊敬. 就硬撑起眼皮继续听. *forward一点点* 回家. 跟玉民立峰车. 又一个紧张. 不知道. 我就是会怕怕. 就是没什么特别原因. 别问我为什么. 结果整个车程就是UFO UFO.

好. 我累了. 今天整天就是紧张紧张. 强调: 分享见证当中很平静. 感谢主.
累累～哦累累～
汗掉疯掉.
*我已经非常尽力的把这长篇大论的日记搞得比较五颜六色了...*

“你是我所喜悦的"

吼！

昨天整天没上网
不是不要, 而是不行
上不到...
笨蛋Streamyx

今天没闲情逸致写长长

所以

就酱~

希望 这次写得长。

我一直很兴奋期待要写这一篇"Bee之成长篇"(我知道. 这title是真的有点逊掉...) 其实主要是描述我从第一次踏入CYC直到现在整个融入CYC的过程感觉印象等等。我不知道真正目的是什么啦, 就只是想写。不过也拜托仔细读一遍嘛.. 我是摆完全部心机去写的咧~

话说我生平第一次踏入FGA CYC是去年12月(一直记不起是哪一天..让我找一找之前的post) oh 是12月29日! 原来酱靠近新年的啊? 我都忘了... 当时一踏入FGA整个人感觉超级无敌lost. 幸好那时有李呸陪我一起sesat. xD. 还记得当天的service在L5. 一进到那里就是@.@. 慧沁也没那么多时间应酬我们, 不懂忙些什么. 过后又遇见Natasha, 也认识不少人. CYC的人总是那么热情友善!

然后然后...
Service开始有ice breaking之类的, 还有赞美敬拜, 信息. 超级记得的是伯寿gor叫我们都写下在2008年所要fulfil的3样事情(好像是3样吧?) 然后要夹在圣经里面. 我是写了, 只是没夹在圣经, 现在那张纸physically被我丢掉了, 但它mentally存在我脑海了. 感谢主, 那三样事情都成就了! =D

之后之后...
有东西吃! Swt掉. 我没那么贪吃啦. 说说而已嘛. 吃东西呢, 是在L3. 那晚有人替不懂哪个某人庆祝生日, 还把他抬起来. =,=. (抬人真的那么好玩吗?) 吃了过后就返家~ 胜和载. 路程中我不想那么显, 就拼命挤一些无聊IQ题来问问.
路人A：等一下, 这些小细节不重要。 请聪明地说。
feiBee: 你要知道，我口水多过蜂蜜, 所以特别多废话。

那天的明天我就写了一篇blog post. 说到我一定会再去的. 就是这篇. Guess what. 拼命找藉口推辞. 其实我真的很喜欢CYC这大家庭. 不过心里就是没有要去. 看到很多开开心心的人, 各样的人, 当时的我会感觉到自己好像不属于那里. 该死的魔鬼谎言! 结果我久久没去CYC了. 慧沁都应该很像翻桌了吧? 哈哈~

过了不知几个充满蜘蛛网的月份, 终于...
慧沁又call了. 没记错的话那时应该是很怕她call, 因为怕她又叫我去教会. 笨吧. 那时她邀我去Alor Gajah的 CYC'遇见神'营会. 不懂为什么就okay了. OkayOkayOkay到营会的前一个礼拜我突然feel到后悔答应去营会. 因为我什么都不懂. 整个又有点anti-social(不严重啦~). 又怕一打开圣经全部人的都满满字而我的是'新书样'. 什么都怕. 我偶尔就是那么怕事. 不过因为答应了, 付营费了, 意味着还是要去.

第一天, 集合天, 营会天...
Victor载Shin我Natasha到教会, 我依旧那么地sesat. 每个人好像都用异样眼光看着我这新的小猫(心理作用满满作祟). 过后就启程聊天吃东西抵达. 总之整个过程我一直感觉到我很new. 不舒服. 不过当然, 我这可以快速懂得适应新环境的人(*ahem* 基本上每个人都可以适应)很快就融入Heart 7了. Quite快啦. 也在当中认识了些些人酱喽... xD.

在营会当中...
这是多人都知道的事-我重新地回到神的面前. 也名符其实地遇见神. 吼~ 那时我真的哭到半晕. 我清楚知道我的牧者要把我这只迷失的羔羊带回家. 也在那天我回应了神的call. 我与神做了个约定, camp过后我一定会去教会.

所以.
我没违反承诺, 没给神一个空头支票! 好啦. 不否认我原本是有带一点犹豫. 但是还好. 有去. =) 那时再次回到CYC, 忘了是什么心情. 但是就会慢慢地被吸引地去教会. 前期是满满拦阻的. 想要去都难. 妈妈阻止啦, 爸爸不开心啦, 哥哥satay satay两下酱啦, 等... 不过现在拦阻都靠着信心跨过了! 妈妈不会开口就机关枪扫射, 爸爸没怎么样, 哥哥反而还帮我嘞~

相比之下...
以前的我跟现在的我差别有少少的大
路人A: 终于说到重点了呗~
feiBee: 这整篇东西都是重点好吗?

以前的我 分享的时候讲话拼命kik下kik下
现在的我 虽然kik但至少不会kik到让人晕头转向

以前的我 很容易小小事发脾气
现在的我 当然还是有忍不住发脾气的时候, 但真的好转了不少

以前的我 会很容易失落到谷底的谷底
现在的我 在神里面常常喜乐!

以前的我 会觉得'我就是我', 保持现况吧!
现在的我 因为主耶稣在我里面, 我不再是我, 我要生命改变!

以前的我 生命空空荡荡
现在的我 时间生命心意都摆在神的国度里

以前的我 很不喜欢异族同胞
现在的我 以基督的爱来爱他们, 爱人如己, 这是多么重要的大诫命!

好多改变.

现在的我很想睡。
请允许小女子先行告退。
晚安!

明天试着继续吧~
xD

Btw. 我不是傻掉才写那么长。
而是因为刚考完Mid-term exam导致现在虽累但还是hyper的.
有点矛盾...

不过... 大家耐心地期待下一篇啦！希望会更精彩～希望啦...

一生人里面
总会有不同类的人

对某类的人
毫无原因之下就会很合拍

对某类的人
毫无原因之下就会废在一起

对某类的人
毫无原因之下就会很不喜欢

对某类的人
毫无戒心之下就会把秘密全倾诉

对某类的人
毫无原因之下只能永远处于萍水相逢姿态

对某类的人
毫无原因之下会很害怕

对某类的人
毫无幽默感只能正经谈话

世界上好多东西是没有原因
不过上述的都有原因
只是我懒，不想列出原因
=,=

废在一起的。畅谈心事的。严肃认真的。萍水相逢的。
不可能喜欢的。暧昧到出汁的。前后印象反差大的。丑态互揭的。

我是苍蝇。

贪玩, 拿Venn的苍蝇墨镜试试看

苍蝇墨镜戴在蜜蜂脸上。

不惯但还是爽

大大的墨镜是真的可以让脸看起来小一点点点点 (自我安慰)

新目标: 漂亮墨镜一个 xD

心。

♡ spongy heart ♡

心似海棉
既柔软又强韧

吸收往内里吞的泪
心渐沉重
直到无法承受

轻碰, 心墙决堤

大哭一场后，又是一块好海棉。